I have kinda come to the realization that i am quite alone here in Arizona. I have many 'friends' in California and here. But for what reason is it that neither but a count of 2 try and hear my voice? can life be worth living alone? i have always been one to be alone, in self solitude. but i guess ever sense ive been trying to get away from that it so seems that is just what i have been bred for and the mistake is mine that my definition of a friend is much different than those of others. I only figure those who care about another would try and keep contact, message eachother or show effort not to have forgotten eachother. Well i havent forgotten about anyone, but i have forseen a forcoming in the near future, for it will not one i care to be part of. but what of the future can be changed? but though i might see what is to become but why should i try to change the future if it is everyones neglect and own messures to make the future the future. I can only hold true to who i am and just be here with who cares to be with me as a friend or not a friend. I will stand true to those i promised nething to, and be what i want to be, and show that maybe that those who promised to me, is only as good as the fake words passed to me in good conduct. Let me not change because of the lack of trueth in people and their words and promises but to the world to become a better and stronger person. to be someone that can come to and mean what they say, and to truely be a friend that a friend really deserves. Be safe an be mine. Always Truely.